from "Ambrasive" (released 2011 on mediafire)

this track was made in one night , made almost completely out of distorted drum presets. this is what i did instead of going to school.
after self titled... and countless quickly made EPs my experimenting was getting to a point where i was actually trying to make things that appealed to me, even though i really still had zero idea how to do much of anything i wanted. i was still using exclusively samples , garageband loops, and presets. i didn't even know how to use a piano roll at this point. everything was DIY and i never really looked up tutorials on music production or theory. to this day my music is just a timeline of me learning how to do things i could easily learn thru youtube or an intermediate piano lesson.
making things only from intuition and trial/error makes me more creative with my process but the quality of what i do still suffers enormously and makes listening to anything pre-2013 hard for me.
i finished "Ambrasive" in early 2011 and it was the first album i ever put on mediafire that i feel like i really worked hard on. the brat attitude was still there but i was conciously making stuff i wanted to listen to now. my evolution was starting.

"my name is black condom/im fucking stupid/i make some beats/cause i can't make music" was kind of a mantra i wanted to define the whole project, but at the same time i was TRYING to make music. half the tracks on ambrasive were melodic experiments of me playing synth presets out of key on my laptop keyboard. instead of only using garageband loops i was starting to mix them with my own percussive sounds i made from recording found sounds into my webcam mic. the sounds were shoddy, and the music wasn't good but i was learning how to do things, and developing a fusion of aggressive noise and breakcore with ambient and computer music i called "ambrasive music"